If I were mid-life, this would be my crisis...

*sigh* I have lost myself.

I don't know what I want to do anymore. I want to go to BGSU but money looks like a not good situation. I also want to switch my major to vocal performance... or at least minor in it. I need to find out what I want to do with the rest of my life without having to take a year off of school. My dad would kill me if I told him I wanted to do that. He would do that and or make my life absolutely miserable. Not that he doesn't sometimes already... but still. I dunno.

Fuckin' hell. I just wanna be happy. I guess that's a lot to ask.

Golly, I'm such a sap!

I miss you.

I miss how you hold me when we sleep.

I miss your hugs.

I miss your kisses.

I miss how you look at me.

I miss your cuddling with me.

I miss your smile.

I miss your laugh.

I miss how you say my name, and how you call me "hon".

I miss waking up next to you.

I miss falling asleep next to you.

I miss rolling over at night and cuddling closer to you.

I miss how you keep me warm when I'm cold.

Basicallly, I miss everything about you. Is that okay with you?